it's you

Weeks
I have been crying and crying for weeks
How'd I survive when I can barely speak
Barely eat, On my knees

But that's the moment you came to me
You don't know what your love has done to me
Think I'm invincible
I see through the me I used to be

You changed my whole life
Don't know what your doing
to me with your love

I'm feeling all super human, you did this to me
A super human heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you

Super human
I feel so superhuman
Super human
I feel so superhuman

Strong
Since I've been flying and writing the wrongs
Feels almost like I've had it all along
I can see tomorrow

Well every problem is gone because
I flew everywhere with love inside of me
It's unbelievable to see
how love can set me free

It's not a bird, not a plane
It's my heart and it's going, gone away
My only weakness is you
Only reason is you
Every minute with you
I can feel like I can do anything
I'm going going, gone away love

superhuman - chris brown feat keri

let's play your game for a moment

when i love him but he don't

all i wanted to say was i love you and i'm not afraid
can you hear me?
can you feel me in your arms?

my last breath - evanescence 

If you love me
Won't you let me know?

So if you love me
Why'd you let me go?

violet hill - coldplay

hidup lebai

42 bauuuuuuu ! bau darah, bau amis! gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! gasuka gasuka -,-
mual abis sampe pucet dan sakit perut gue ngeliat sapi dipotong tapi masih gerak,hueeeeeeeeekkksssss!!!
okay,skip this!

abis pm, gue debby shabi vito rio dan irfan pergi ke setia budi naik motor lohh :) asik deh (ribetnya nyari 3 helm pula) kita nonton film ninja assassin. ini nih film paksaannya si debby, katanya macho. hahahahhaha bolehboleh :)

tapi gue lebih suka rain begini nihhhh,

(hueheheheehheeheheheeeee T,T)

selesai nonton gue buruburu keluar gedung ninggalin anakanak karena gue udah dijemput mama didepan,pake larilari segala kayak orang bego. abis itu gue jalan ke rumah sakit jakarta. gue rontgen tulang punggung gue (tepatnya tulang ekor gue). jadi ceritanya udah berbulanbulan gue ngerasa ga enak dibagian ekor gue.sumpah ga enak abis. seinget gue ini nyeri dari pas gue latian md buat 17an, yang dipaksain gue harus gymnastik. padahal gue kaga bisa. dan ternyata gue ga sadar kalo sampe sekarang sakitnya masih ada. yaaaa hasil pemeriksaan belum keluar sih. tapi yang jelas, gue berharap ga ada apaapa. ya mungkin gue lebai, tapi ini cuma agak menggangu gue beraktivitas (kayak shalat dan cuci rambut) apalagi ngedance. secara gue lagi giatgiatnya tuh belajar dance :) dan gue sedikit shock dan tertekan pas dokter nyaranin gue minum obat (gatau deh obat apa, emang ada ye obat buat sakit tulang ekor?) dan pas dokter bilang "jangan olahraga dulu ya," sumpah shock abissssssssssssssssss. walaupun gue gasuka olahraga banget tapi gue lagi seneng olahraga, apalagi lari nih dan gue harus nunggu hasil dari dokter syaraf yang cuma ada pas weekdays -,- gatau deh kapan gue kesana lagi. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa tidak suka!

hidup gue lagi banyak bangetttttttttttttt yang anehaneh -,- hari ini gue seneng (sesaat), soalnya ada yang peduli sama gue, yaitu vito :) terima kasih toooooooooooo lo peduli ma gue, hha padahal gatau gue sakit apa ga. lebai ya? ahh bodo. udah lama ga ada yang peduli sama gue, cuma lo (dan debby) yang benerbener ngasi gue support dari pristiwa tabrakan, masalah dia (walapun lo gatau apaapa to tentangyang ini), plus berita hot malem ini yang bilang cowo gue bilang di status updatenya "dasar wanita jalang" (kirakira begini lah) dan semua temantemannya menyangka itu gue. OMG! gue aja gapernah buka fb,
ya Allah, gue ga samasekali nyangka itu buat gue. tapi sumpah gue gasuka sampe tementemennya nyangka itu gue, kecuali jelas itu buat siapa. aduhh maaf lebai lagi gue :'(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( (gue pengen cerita yang ini to sama lo,kapan ya?mungkin kalo ketemu hari senin. oke siapsiap jadi tisu gue kan kemarin lo gajadi noh nemenin gue yang pengen nangis pas nonton new moon) aduh kenapa yaaa gue? bahkan abang aja yang barusan main ga nenangin gue -,- tapi kok gue pengen ketawa ya gan? apa gue udah gila? gue sedih tapi gamau nangis sekarang.....

hahaaahahaahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahahahhahahahhahahahaahahahhahahahahaaaaa

satu tahun lalu selama tiga hari

bella swan said :

" It never made sense for you to love me. "

edward cullen said :

"But how could you believe me? After all the thousand times I've told you I love you, how could you let one word break your faith in me? [...] I could see it in your eyes, that you honestly believed that I didn't want you anymore. The most absurd, ridiculous concept — as if there were any way that I could exist without needing you!"

Edward Cullen to Bella Swan, p. 510

" You’re not asleep, and you’re not dead. I’m here, and I love you. I have always loved you, and I will always love you. I was thinking of you, seeing your face in my mind, every second that I was away. When I told you that I didn’t want you, it was the very blackest kind of blasphemy. "
Edward Cullen, p. 510

" Only you could be more important than what I wanted… what I needed. What I want and need is to be with you, and I know I’ll never be strong enough to leave again. I have too many excuses to stay—thank heaven for that! It seems you can’t be safe, no matter how many miles I put between us."
Edward Cullen, p. 510


" Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars — points of light and reason. ...And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything."

Edward Cullen, p. 514

satu kalimat cinta

i ♥ you and always do,

hope today can be a better day

ada seseorang yang bilang hari ini gue akan bahagia? mungkin dia cuma mau buat gue seneng dan menghibur gue hari ini. makasih, tapi gue udah hopeless banget dah kalo yang itu -,- gue aja gatau gimana dapet kesempatan yang ke......hmm........tiga? udah lebih kayaknya,udah banyak banget gue nyianyiain semua kesempatan itu. ya Allah,buat gue tetep kuat. semoga semua mendapat yang terbaik dan apa  yang gue udah lakuin termaafkan dikehidupan lain (yeeeee curhat). aminnnnnnnnnnnn :)
 

tentang seorang pria

 
Seems there's just so many roads to travel, it's hard to tell where they will lead
My life is scarred and my dreams unraveled
Now I'm scared to take the leap
If I could find someone to follow who knows my pain and feels the weight
The uncertainty of my tomorrow, the guilt and pain of yesterday

Is there hope for every man
A solid place where we can stand
In this dry and weary land
Is there hope for every man
Is there love that never dies
Is there peace in troubled times
Someone help me understand

Is there hope for every man

 every man - casting crowns

sumpah abis baca lirik ini gue jadi takut nyakitin hati cowo lagi -,- 

(maaf buat seorang pria diluar sana yang pernah gue sakitin barubaru ini, i'm really sorry and thank you for reading this :') ♥you)

binggung mau menghibur diri dengan apa,

lebih baik gue upload foto gue hari ini :) yeaaaaaaaaaaaaayyy! PEDE SEKALI ya?

sumpah udah lama ga foto sendiri begini,

hari ini jenguk aisyah di rumahnya sama mira,debby,shabrina,nda,mun,dewi,eni,hillan.  alhamdulillah dia udah sembuhhhh loh :) udah keluar dari rumah sakit juga

lagu buat hari ini,

You call me a stranger
You say I'm a danger
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight
I'm broke and abandoned
You are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight

stranger - secondhand serenade

have you forgotten all we had?

You won't cry for my absence, I know
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

and if I bleed, I'll bleed,
knowing you don't care.

missing - evanesence

Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it?

Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted

 say all i need - one republic

dia

maaf kalo foto yang gue upload ini menganggu atau apa, yang pasti ini figur dia yang terakhir yang bisa gue ambil pake kamera gue sendiri :') tolong ngerti ya (gue bukan mau cari sensasi atau masalah)

as the sun goes down & the stars rises high, that is when the chaos begins. all the secrets turn into truth. its all a broken record. i put my all into everything in my life, no one will know the difference..
you need to guard your heart with armor in this situation. chose your words wisely but  i'm too late:'(


♥ you

cari spion mobil

dimulai dengan perjalanan pertama kita parkir mobil di atrium mana ke tempat bengkel di atap tapi belum buka,muter lagi sampe bawah.sedeng.bensin udah kedipkedip mennnn! lalu kita ke jalan poncol liat barang bekas,ini garagara gue tertarik ma omongan ai yang dapet kamera lama,poncol itu panas dan gue yakin banyak copet.rrrrrrrrrrrrrr.tapi tertarik sih pengen kameranya,cuma no money :(

"pagi ini panas banget dan gue ga ikut tryout bta,pake ngajak aria ma debby bolos juga nemenin gue nyari spion di atrium.hahahaahahaaha.sekarang kita lagi di hokeben lagi nunggu tokotoko buka.gila mahal coy bisa 300ribu lebih.mana ga pada bawa duit bensin udah kedipkedip ditambah kepala gue benjol tadi nabrak gagang pintu.sakitnya men ;( lengkap sudah hari ini,ga deng masih jam 10 sekarang.semoga gue dapet spion murah yang bagus,amin"

akhirnya dapet juga gue spionnya sama jasa 285rb.alhamdulillah banget dahhh tapi ini duit pinjem sanasini ma debby dan ai.ohhh God, kata ai : "le, lamalama utang lo satu juta",ehh sial lo -,- spion ini kita dapet pake mutermuter dulu tanya semua toko daihatsu,udah gitu tukangnya bisa banget nipunya. seharusnya dapet cover 50rb malah jadi 60rb, terus barang yang di ko china jutek dipindah ke toko belakang, biar dibeli. payah bangettt dahhhh.kacau dah beli barang di atrium,sengkongkolannya canggih men.

selesai masalah spion,akhirnya mikirin parkir dan bensin yang udah kedipkedip mulu,maaf aja ini emak gue emang suka bawel,mesti isi di shell, ya Allah,dikata murah kali yaaa?terpaksa isi bensin di jalan pramuka,jauhhh yeeeeeeee.padahal samping atrium ada,cuma belum jadi :(.perjalanan ke pramuka itu pun tanpa AC dan panas benerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.muka kita kucel semua ditambah malunya isi bensin cuma 20ribu.ahhhhh malumaluin parah.

pusing karena bensin ga cuma ampe sini,abis itu kita ke tebet nemuin eki buat minjem uang 40rb buat beli bensin lagi,untungnya ada di mt haryono men!hha isi lagi 40rb lumayan :) perjalanan pulang dari situ pun tetep tanpa AC,baru dinyalain deketdeket rumah debby di legenda wisata -,- susah bener mikir bensin

eh mundur dulu,pas ditebet,gue ngenalin debby ma es paling enak buat pengganjal laper dan enak,namanya es podeng dan dia tertarik,akhirnya kita beli podeng abis 8rb,karena seret kita mampir ke CK untuk beli minum and you must know,itu kita beli pake flazz gue yang cuma sisa 26ribu. pas banget beli minum 3,yoghurt,dan mie goreng (gue kaga makan di hokben tadi).ribet lagi bayar parkir, pake duit terakhir debby yang 2rb.lanjuttttt kita naik tol ke cibubur 2,5rb pake duit recehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh men,saking udah ga ada duit di kantong,dompet,tas,mobil -,- abisabisan sumpah, mesti tau aja itu pake recehan 100x10 ditambah 200x5 ditambah 500 perak dari duit kembalian makan yang tadinya mau ditinggal ai di hokben (sok banget kaya nih ai,untung debby inisiatif ngambil)

tapi akhirnya sampe rumah debby,ngaso dulu.jernihin pikiran dan istirahat dulu bentar,sayangnya gabisa pinjem internet,untung dua temen gue ini anak gaul BB (jangan marah ye).pulangnya macettttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt men dijalan,gila ni hari panjanggggggggggggggggggggggg bangettttt!

deactived my facebook

maaf yee gue ga aktifin facebook gue,buat plurk dong makannya...hha promosi gue,emmmmm alesan gue itu beneran koq.gue lagi males liat home facebook gue yang pasti ada dia,oke,gue seneng dia ga remove gue dari friend listnya dan gue seneng kalo dia post sesuatu yaaahhh pokoknya yang nandain dia aktif dah :) yang gue malesin itu liat postan tementemen gue yang deket sama dia,ya kalo ga dia like,pasti dia comment.gue sebel gabisa dapet itu.lebai banget emang.tapi kalo lo jadi gue,busetdahhh bunuh diri kali.lebaiiiiii lagi!

apologize (onerepublic)

I'm holdin' on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground.
And I'm hearin' what you say,
But I just can't make a sound.
You tell me that you need me,
Then you go and cut me down...
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry,
Didn't think I'd turn around...
And say...

That it's too late to apologize.
It's too late...
I said it's too late to apologize.
It's too late.
Yeah!

I'd take another chance,
Take a fall, take a shot for you.
I need you like a heart needs a beat,
But it's nothin' new.
I loved you with a fire red,
Now it's turnin' blue...
And you say...
Sorry, like an angel
Heaven let me think was you...
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize.
It's too late.
I said it's too late to apologize.
It's too late.
Whoa!

It's too late to apologize.
It's too late.
I said it's too late to apologize.
It's too late.

It's too late to apologize. YEAH!
I said it's too late to apologize. YEAH!
I'm holdin' on your rope,
got me ten feet off the ground.

lagu ini pasti dinyanyikan oleh seseorang buat gue :'(

happy birthday bramski (Mohammad Herbram Arya Pranata)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,

WISHING YOU ALL THE BEST :)

hahahhahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa puas banget bisa ngerjain lo bramski :D hari ini gue jadi ada hiburan, akting gue nangis itu bagus ga? hahahhahhaaaaaaaaaaaaa (padahal mah beneran nangis gargara rio ngerjain gue) walapun gue benci liat kue ultah lo -,- untung tiramisu bukan coklat atau keju, maaf ye tadi ga ikutan makanmakannya, ga nafsu abis nyium bau lo yang mirip udang ;D ramuan gue keren abis! ga deng, udah kenyang ma botol ijo gue.zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. becanda dehhhh semuanya

my lost prince

everywhere, i remembered the day that he and i together :') and i dont think i'll forget the day he confessed that he loved me.....

crazy! i only hope it's true

but i believe the true is no goodbye because there is another world in human life and my love will continue then,

" If i interact with things in my life, everything is constantly changing. And if nothing changes, i'm an idiot "

very bad days

hari dari kemarin aneh banget.gue udah buat kesalahan yang parahhhhh,zzzzz pusing.tapi udah males gue inget.ditambah gue masih shock kemarin mobil mama gue diserempet truk dan spion kiri ancur.ohhhh God,gue shock parah udah gitu gue gabisa bilang ke mama,ga enak parah.asuransi ada tapi pasti ntar ketahuan mama.udah gitu dicuekin tementemen gue,bukannya mereka peduli malah didiemin gue.whatttt d' fuuuuuukkkkk! akhirnya di ph gue malah menyendiri di tempat sepi (tempat buat gitugituan bisa) -,- sumpah kemarin itu hari parah bgt,malem sebelumnya gue tidur jam 2 pula,nangis mulu siangnya.untungnya mario mau nemenin kerumah debby.tapi ga berlangsung lama ketentraman hati gue,lagilagi gue ngeliat diaaaaaaa.cukup udah melem ini.cuma bisa bilang makasih sama rio,vito,dewi,aisyah,debby dan mario ;))))))

maaf kalo akhirakhir ini sikap gue ga enakin,mood gue ga oke.

mungkin gue kurang mendekatkan diri ma Allah ya?ya Allah,maaf :'(

loving you secretly

seperti yang aku kira emang aku bakal nyakitin kamu lagi lagi lagi kalo kamu tetep disamping aku. aku gabisa nerima kehadiran kamu seperti yang seharusnya, seandainya bisa pun mugkin sekarang aku udah bahagia banget (sumpah -,-) tapi seperti yang kamu tau, aku gabisa ngambil jalan itu (kalo kamu tau apa yang  aku jalanin selama ini, itu udah susah banget apalagi untuk ngelepas itu dan biarin semuanya jadi percuma)

ga akan aku ngungkit-ngungkit yang udah terjadi tadi. apa yang aku rasain tadi udah ga penting (aku nyesel), aku bener-bener minta maaf kalo yang tadi udah nyakitin kamu (banget dan berlebay) dan buat kamu menyesal sama semuanya,

aku iri sama mereka, aku iri sama mereka yang bias deket  sama kamu dan dapet perhatian kamu tanpa ada pengecualian

kenapa harus sekarang ya Allah :’(, aku jatuh cinta sama kamu dan ini disaat yang sangat ga tepat. dimana seharusnya berjalan mulai tapi malah berakhir

Please tell me why do birds
Sing when you're near me?
Sing when you're close to me?
They say that I'm a fool
For loving you deeply
Loving you secretly

Well I crash in my mind
Whenever you are near
Getting deaf, dumb and blind
Just drowning in despair
I am lost in your flame
It's burning like the sun
And I call out your name
The moment you are gone
The moment you are gone

Tomorrow
I'll tell it all tomorrow
Or the day after tomorrow
I'm sure I'll tell you then 

this song for my DEBBY ANGELINE

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through my fingers

I don't want to try now
All that's lefts goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you

tentang sebelas ipa 2 feat duabelas ipa 4 (2008-2010)